We go through loneliness and dark places sometimes. Places where others cannot always go with us. I went through a time of depression recently, mainly a time of spiritual wrestling. I kept it to myself for awhile, then saw a counselor for it. I also kept in touch with trusted friends over the phone who I knew cared about me and would be there in a heartbeat. I also discovered the hurt of the friends who weren't there... or people who saw me daily but didn't know the extent of the battle I went through. I realize sometimes in myself, I run desperately to other sources, to other people, rather than running to my Lord. The only one who can really free me and meet my needs. In my hurt I am desperate to run elsewhere. Why? Part of the reason could be that I was angry at God. Unsatisfied with where I was at, and blaming Him. Then I realized most of it was being upset at myself, and allowing lies of the enemy to infiltrate my mind. It is so true when the Lord says to seek Him first, and everything else shall be added unto you. When I sought the Lord, really sought the Lord, He heard my cry and He began a process of healing me. I began to write all of the things I had learned and been through since I was a child. And I had seen through each step in my life God had brought a new healing, and new blessings. I realized that there was a lot of mental pain and anguish I had experienced over the years, and how God was healing me wound by wound, bit by bit, until it affected the whole. I had to gain a renewed sense of His presence, and my deep need for Him to saturate my soul (That is a song by Darlene Zschech). My mind was going through so much turmoil, so many emotions and doubt. Seeing the darkness in myself and desperately wanting to be free. Wanting to end this cycle of perfection, striving, guilt, shame, fear, and worry. Jesus, you are still healing me. You have already proclaimed it over me - my healing and deliverance. Let me trust your promise and walk in that. Walk in the fullness of freedom. Today in church they said Christ is constantly praying and interceding for us in Heaven's throne room. Even when we are not praying for ourselves, He is praying for us. He wants my healing and to see me whole as much as I do. He brings us through the fire and through the dark times. He takes us out of those periods of doubt and mental confusion, so that He may refine us, and we may then be made whole.
Welcome In This Place
Darlene Zschech
Holy Spirit Holy Spirit Comforter Counselor here Holy Spirit sent from heaven The God of all glory is here Rise up within me Living Water Spirit of God in me You are welcome in this place You are welcome in this place God of power love and grace Saturate my soul You are welcome in this place You are welcome in this place Holy Spirit guide my way Saturate my soul Closest friend Here in Your presence Is fullness of joy overflowing
